How would I describe my personality?

My therapist told me that I have the “gift of intensity.” I think that’s the perfect description of who I am.

Describing my personality in concrete terms has been hard to figure out over the years, because it was always me trying to differentiate my innate personality from the symptoms that come as a result of my mental health disorders. Something about psychiatric medication that was frequently brought up as a concern had always been, “will this change who I am?” That then triggered the question, “who am I?”

Because of decades spent asking these questions, personality is a subject I have thought about a lot. So… self-aware and self-reflective… those are both powerful parts of my personality.

Emotionally sensitive and emotionally intense.

I am enthusiastic and I smile easily. I possess genuine care, curiosity, and appreciation of everything and everyone around me. My interest in all the things rather than one single thing makes me think of that phrase, “jack of all trades, but master of none.”

Who I am is a person open, outgoing, and optimistic. A magnet. A force multiplier. Charismatic.

My brain is made of chaos. I am impulsive and frequently impatient. I am also persistent and resilient. I like to create order around me.

I think, to end this, that the most important thing I can say about who I am is that my personality is not derived from my mental health. It’s just the intensity and angles that get moved around sometimes.