I don’t see many people who have regular conversations with the person they will be. It’s usually thinking about the past and what we would say to our younger selves. But, the past can’t be changed. It happened. It’s why we spend decades in therapy trying to fill in the broken pieces. The future, however?Continue reading “A letter to my future self”
Monthly Archives: October 2022
Thirty facts about myself
Well now. Isn’t this a great way to guess my passwords, right? So, got to think of facts that are true – but ridiculous or just crazy obvious. Let’s go! That was quite a lot of fun to write! Thank you to my friend Chris for helping me come up with ideas. (Hi Chris!)
Looking to publish?
Been thinking about this since my therapist brought it up last week.(Link to previous post.) I’ve also been poking around Medium.com a lot. It’s such a place of inspiration for me. And a place that feels like it might be a good place to start if I were to possibly look into publishing things IContinue reading “Looking to publish?”
To run away? Or to escape?
The first time I “ran away” it was in the middle of winter and I was 12 years old. It was already dark, and I had no destination or any idea of where I could go and I wasn’t gone very long. I remember, though, how awful things were and my feelings of needing toContinue reading “To run away? Or to escape?”
To discuss style is more than just fashion
What is “style?” In the fashion world, “style” is usually shorthand for “personal style,” or the way an individual expresses themselves through aesthetic choices such as their clothing, accessories, hairstyle, and the way they put an outfit together. I know that there are a lot of people who don’t believe style matters. But, I genuinelyContinue reading “To discuss style is more than just fashion”
The books that tell my story
Someone asks me, “What’s your favorite movie?” My answer is instantaneous. I may have a list of favorites, but there is only one that stands at the top. But books? Oh fuck no. I can’t imagine picking a single book over all other books. How can I? Books are magic. I love them all. IContinue reading “The books that tell my story”
Actual Play D&D and why it matters to me
This might be cheating if I want to talk about a favorite “tv show,” like my writing challenge prompts, because Critical Role is an online streaming show and not on the TV (even though the animated show does air on Amazon). But… it’s a serialized show that tells a story over time with the sameContinue reading “Actual Play D&D and why it matters to me”
My siblings – they’re pretty great
Oh dear. *laughs* There ARE five of us in my family. Most of them are really fucking awesome. So I will talk about the three of them. I’ve got my Not Twin (same birthday, two years apart). I’ve got my Little Brother (two years younger – a billion feet taller). And I’ve got my BabyContinue reading “My siblings – they’re pretty great”
A best friend is someone to treasure
Ellen and I make very little sense together to people who only know one of us but not really the other. It feels weird talking (writing) about her here. Because… I can’t just describe her. And, I’m sure that the her *I* describe wouldn’t at all be the her that *she* would describe. 🙂 Plus,Continue reading “A best friend is someone to treasure”
“I’m not good enough”
This quick and dirty post brought to you by a session with my therapist today. You know those intense feelings of inadequacy and fear? What happens when they are combined with feelings of shame and fear? Maybe add a dash of powerlessness and hopelessness. For extra fun, let’s also throw in some guilt. That joyfulContinue reading ““I’m not good enough””
Dungeons & Dragons is more than a game
Ok. I get to talk about happiness again for this challenge. And, I am going to talk about something I’ve been wanting to talk about here for the longest time. Things. People. Activities. What brings me happiness? Dungeons & Dragons is the first thing that will always come to mind. I’ve played D&D, off andContinue reading “Dungeons & Dragons is more than a game”
Memory is a funny thing
The most famous story in my family has always been told about my sister Tina. Everyone knows this story. When we were little, living in Arizona (we lived pretty well out in the boonies up in Flagstaff for a time), our family was extra extra poor. Fresh red meat was something we didn’t get aContinue reading “Memory is a funny thing”
Contemplations on happiness in general
I have an entire list in the Notes app on my phone that names things that make me happy. It numbers in the hundreds. Sometimes, when I used to hit the point of “I need a tattoo” to appease the mental breakdown gods, I would pull out that list to determine what that tattoo wouldContinue reading “Contemplations on happiness in general”
How would I describe my personality?
My therapist told me that I have the “gift of intensity.” I think that’s the perfect description of who I am. Describing my personality in concrete terms has been hard to figure out over the years, because it was always me trying to differentiate my innate personality from the symptoms that come as a resultContinue reading “How would I describe my personality?”
Connecting with other people
Vulnerability. That’s the magic word when it comes to connection. It’s when we let our guard down and find acceptance in who we are. It’s feeling free to be silly. Feeling free to express our honest emotions. Feeling free to let go and tell the world what’s in our heads and in our hearts. WhenContinue reading “Connecting with other people”
Welcome to my world 