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*Smiles* This is a pretty great way to start out my birthday celebrations. Happy 43!

Years and years ago, while working at one of my old jobs, I got written up because the slightest hint of one of my tattoos was visible at my wrist, and I was deemed “unprofessional.” I decided after that I would never work somewhere where the only thing people cared about was what they sawContinue reading “My need to be seen.”

It’s been almost a month since I was hit by the car. But the effects of it are going to be a part of my psyche for a long time to come. One of the many things I am working out with my therapist is trying to find the meaning in all of this. ThatContinue reading “The long-term effects of PTSD”

I have been having multiple meltdowns every day since my car accident last week, on top of the disassociation, nightmares, and fear/worry over things that otherwise wouldn’t bother me in the slightest. Classic case of PTSD, according to my therapist. She has been checking on me daily. And, between her encouragement and the support ofContinue reading “PTSD and the question, “Who am I?””

I’m starting my new job on the 21st. The 17th was my final day at Tufts, but Thursday the 16th was when I’d say my final farewell to a job I’d been at for ten years. Despite how sad that was going to be, Thursday morning I was in the best mood ever. I wasContinue reading “Accidents happen. But trauma remains.”

My decision to leave the job I’ve been at for the past ten years began last May. But in July I found a company that truly excited me. When I realized that THAT was where I wanted to work, I decided to keep an eye on job postings there only. Make connections. Be persistent. ThatContinue reading “Trauma in positive change”

Midway through January, and I’m still marveling at the start of this new year. It’s because I said to someone the other day, “I had an awesome 2022.” For the first time, I think, I said that and didn’t immediately feel guilty about it. I didn’t feel as though my happiness and positive experiences wereContinue reading “Welcome, 2023”

Reading.Playing D&D.A love of color.Sunrises.Smiles. (faces in general)Sketching.Doing things on the computer.Being able to SEE. Those are all things that are vitally important to me. Things that help me smile. That help me when I feel myself slipping. That are simply my favorite things. Last week at my regular eye check-up my doctor found aContinue reading “Facing the potential of my greatest fear”

Every 2 years I find myself going completely nuts for a full month. This year, it’s November/December (rather than the usual June/July). Want to guess what happens every 2 years that lasts for a month? That’s right. It’s the World Cup. My favorite event in the world. The event that sets me off on aContinue reading “A month of connecting with the world.”