*Smiles* This is a pretty great way to start out my birthday celebrations. Happy 43!
Category Archives: personal
My need to be seen.
Years and years ago, while working at one of my old jobs, I got written up because the slightest hint of one of my tattoos was visible at my wrist, and I was deemed “unprofessional.” I decided after that I would never work somewhere where the only thing people cared about was what they sawContinue reading “My need to be seen.”
The long-term effects of PTSD
It’s been almost a month since I was hit by the car. But the effects of it are going to be a part of my psyche for a long time to come. One of the many things I am working out with my therapist is trying to find the meaning in all of this. ThatContinue reading “The long-term effects of PTSD”
PTSD and the question, “Who am I?”
I have been having multiple meltdowns every day since my car accident last week, on top of the disassociation, nightmares, and fear/worry over things that otherwise wouldn’t bother me in the slightest. Classic case of PTSD, according to my therapist. She has been checking on me daily. And, between her encouragement and the support ofContinue reading “PTSD and the question, “Who am I?””
Accidents happen. But trauma remains.
I’m starting my new job on the 21st. The 17th was my final day at Tufts, but Thursday the 16th was when I’d say my final farewell to a job I’d been at for ten years. Despite how sad that was going to be, Thursday morning I was in the best mood ever. I wasContinue reading “Accidents happen. But trauma remains.”
Trauma in positive change
My decision to leave the job I’ve been at for the past ten years began last May. But in July I found a company that truly excited me. When I realized that THAT was where I wanted to work, I decided to keep an eye on job postings there only. Make connections. Be persistent. ThatContinue reading “Trauma in positive change”
Welcome, 2023
Midway through January, and I’m still marveling at the start of this new year. It’s because I said to someone the other day, “I had an awesome 2022.” For the first time, I think, I said that and didn’t immediately feel guilty about it. I didn’t feel as though my happiness and positive experiences wereContinue reading “Welcome, 2023”
Facing the potential of my greatest fear
Reading.Playing D&D.A love of color.Sunrises.Smiles. (faces in general)Sketching.Doing things on the computer.Being able to SEE. Those are all things that are vitally important to me. Things that help me smile. That help me when I feel myself slipping. That are simply my favorite things. Last week at my regular eye check-up my doctor found aContinue reading “Facing the potential of my greatest fear”
A month of connecting with the world.
Every 2 years I find myself going completely nuts for a full month. This year, it’s November/December (rather than the usual June/July). Want to guess what happens every 2 years that lasts for a month? That’s right. It’s the World Cup. My favorite event in the world. The event that sets me off on aContinue reading “A month of connecting with the world.”
A letter to my future self
I don’t see many people who have regular conversations with the person they will be. It’s usually thinking about the past and what we would say to our younger selves. But, the past can’t be changed. It happened. It’s why we spend decades in therapy trying to fill in the broken pieces. The future, however?Continue reading “A letter to my future self”
Thirty facts about myself
Well now. Isn’t this a great way to guess my passwords, right? So, got to think of facts that are true – but ridiculous or just crazy obvious. Let’s go! That was quite a lot of fun to write! Thank you to my friend Chris for helping me come up with ideas. (Hi Chris!)
Looking to publish?
Been thinking about this since my therapist brought it up last week.(Link to previous post.) I’ve also been poking around Medium.com a lot. It’s such a place of inspiration for me. And a place that feels like it might be a good place to start if I were to possibly look into publishing things IContinue reading “Looking to publish?”
To run away? Or to escape?
The first time I “ran away” it was in the middle of winter and I was 12 years old. It was already dark, and I had no destination or any idea of where I could go and I wasn’t gone very long. I remember, though, how awful things were and my feelings of needing toContinue reading “To run away? Or to escape?”
To discuss style is more than just fashion
What is “style?” In the fashion world, “style” is usually shorthand for “personal style,” or the way an individual expresses themselves through aesthetic choices such as their clothing, accessories, hairstyle, and the way they put an outfit together. I know that there are a lot of people who don’t believe style matters. But, I genuinelyContinue reading “To discuss style is more than just fashion”
The books that tell my story
Someone asks me, “What’s your favorite movie?” My answer is instantaneous. I may have a list of favorites, but there is only one that stands at the top. But books? Oh fuck no. I can’t imagine picking a single book over all other books. How can I? Books are magic. I love them all. IContinue reading “The books that tell my story”
Welcome to my world 