Smile for a Saturday- Sentimentality

I’m a sap. Not ashamed of being sentimental. It’s a part of who I am. Holding onto the memories of things that have made me smile is helpful in helping me remember that not every aspect of my past has been awful. That despite everything I’ve been through and all the lies in my brain,Continue reading “Smile for a Saturday- Sentimentality”

Believing in myself – Job search edition

I made the decision to start looking for another job. Told my boss last week and yesterday I told my coworkers. I’ve been here for just about 9 years, and while I love it here and I am deeply appreciated, I’ve reached a point where I want to find a job that means something toContinue reading “Believing in myself – Job search edition”

It feels like I am being punished

Tested positive for COVID yesterday. I’d been showing a variety of symptoms since Wednesday, but all of my home tests kept coming back negative. Then I found out that someone I had been around on Monday tested positive, and suddenly things got more concerning. Luckily I don’t (yet) have a fever. And my breathing seemsContinue reading “It feels like I am being punished”

One does not equal the other

I feel hopeless. I would guess that people who throw around words and concepts like depression or blame bipolar on everything would say “you’re just depressed. Things will look up.” But I’m not depressed. Hopeless doesn’t mean I am depressed. I’m not depressed at all. But I do feel hopeless. It’s the situation with myContinue reading “One does not equal the other”

“Fuck it. I’m going to the Bahamas.”

After months and months and more months of a nightmare of harassment involving my downstairs neighbor, it culminated with proof to me in court last week that neither I nor the police could do a damn thing about the situation. Emotionally, this came really close to full on breaking me. I needed to get myContinue reading ““Fuck it. I’m going to the Bahamas.””

Goodbye, 2021. Hello, 2022.

Happy New Year. Welcome to 2022. Every year, on December 31st, I take my time to sit down and think. It’s my way of celebrating my successes and accepting what needs working on or working toward. The past year, as a whole, has been extremely difficult. The pandemic. Politics. Climate. Stupid people. I just hadContinue reading “Goodbye, 2021. Hello, 2022.”